Paternal Vacation
You are at the edge of a breakthrough, but cannot push yourself any faster than reality will allow. It's as if the speed of change is being controlled now by external events, rather than your own desires and intent. Remember that frustration is a result of impatience and that real transformation will take more time.
Don't I know it.
Today wasn't so bad. I was busy most of the day at the theater in rehearsal. It kept my mind off the actual 'date' of Dad's passing.
730 days.
I can't believe it's been that long. Yet sometimes, it feels like yesterday.
Or an hour ago.
Most times, I try not to think about it. When it's really difficult, I pretend he's on a long trip.
In truth, he is.
One day, I'll catch up to him.
He's more patient than me, he'll wait.
He always did.
Updated: 1/5/07
