Eternal Hope
I feel like every day is the same. I wake up and have great hopes for something wonderful to happen. Usually it doesn't, but it's nice to know that somehow, I am eternally hopeful, right?
I think that my virus/illness/unexplainedness is nearly gone. I was worried because my sugar levels were very high and I haven't been eating any differently.
Well, except for those Pizza Rolls I had during the Ste3ler game. But, that's okay cause they're out of my system now. Way out of my system.
It could just be Mid-Winter lithargy or depression because it's nearing the 2 year anniversary of Dad's passing. [Why I'd say 'anniversary' I don't understand. I just don't know how else to say it.]
I have crying-jags. Some of them are not pretty. Sunday, I played one of his favorite hymns. I mean, I really played it. I don't know what inspired me, but sometimes, it just slips out and I forget that there are other people in the room. Listening. Most times, I feel guilty taking their $$. Honestly? I play for ME. I play what I like, what I'm in the mood for.
Well, the important thing? I keep trying. I keep getting outta bed with the hope that today is gonna be a better day, in some small way.
Updated: 1/5/07
